4/6/11

Ugh. Cora is apparently having a rough spell with teething or growing or both. I wound up half-snoozing with her on me on the couch from 11 PM to 3 AM. Finally, I was able to put her in her own bed. Ugh. We'll see how well I can maintain resolve today. I am on a roll, but I also know how easy it is to slide into thinking things are going well because I am strong. THAT won't last. At some point, we're going to have to bridge that gap where I have to turn my cravings toward God and rely on his strength.

Breakfast: fried egg, plain yogurt with apple, walnuts, raisins, sunflower seeds, ginger
11 AM: a couple of apple slices (too busy)

"Just how irresistable is Kellogg's Crunchy Nut? You won't want to wait until morning to eat it." I was just trying to check out the eagle cam online while feeding Cora, and I was subjected to this commercial where the guy is working on his computer late on a rainy night (yep, I can totally relate), he thinks about this Crunchy Nut cereal, and he hops up, grabs the box, heads to his car, boards a plane (on which he snuggles with the box of cereal), and winds up on a sunrise beach somewhere oriental looking, and the announcer quips, "It's morning somewhere!" Dude, this has been me so many times (sans plane and Japanese sunrise). I'm okay (it's almost lunch-time anyway), but what a culture we have developed for ourselves...

Lunch: another stuffed soft taco: whole grain tortilla with beans, chicken, various veggies, sour cream. I. Love. Leftovers. !!

Snack: Okay, I snacked more than once. I had some apple. And then I got hungry again. Legitimately hungry. So I ate some chunks of beets and avocado that I was preparing for/feeding Cora.

Dinner: homemade eggrolls, homemade beet/apple turnovers, snow peas

I. Want. To. EAT! And I'm not at all hungry. There are two extra eggrolls and 3 turnovers sitting out in the kitchen. In weeks past, I would have popped at least some of both in my mouth each time I walked by for the couple of hours after dinner. Here is where the battle is for sure. Pull out the verses. Recite: Made for more. Made for more. Made for more. I'm so tired, and I could just escape to bed, except the bed is covered with piles of stuff I had moved from the sewing machine table so I could work on a project this afternoon. I'm going to make a cup of tea, finish the project, redistribute the piles, and go to bed. And hopefully sleep more than last night. Oh God, Jesus, I crave you! Help me turn my eyes from the quick fix to the Real Way to fill my soul.

Daily food plan:
3 reasonably sized meals
1 morning snack at 10:30 optional
1 afternoon snack at 3:30 optional
1 post-dinner "dessert" 4 days a week. Dessert = fruit mix, yogurt mess, granola, or a "girlie drink" (Bailey's)

Overall:
No Processed Sugar. Limit grains in general. Stick to whole grains that are not wheat to keep sugar cravings under control. Snacks should mostly be fruits and veggies. Drink lots of water. No eating after 8:30 PM.
Portion control is not so much of a concern since I'm still nursing Cora. I'm more focused on frequency of eating and duration; I can drag a meal out for a couple of hours going back for one more bite every 10 minutes or tacking on a piece of bread or bowl of cereal as an "extension" of a meal.