8:30: The plate of leftover pancakes next to the stove is calling my name. I am steadfastly ignoring it.
8:43: I think I may need to just repeatedly read Made to Crave over and over for the rest of my life. Thank you, Lysa Terkeurst, and thank you, God. Every sentence is true and encouraging. Here's what I just read: "It is good for God's people to be put in a place of longing so they feel a slight desperation. Only then can we be empty enough and open enough to discover the holiness we were made for...Moment by moment we have the choice to live in our own strength and risk failure or to reach across the gap and grab hold of God's unwavering strength." Drinking a big glass of water to that!
Snack #1: carrot sticks and hummus
Snack #2: Errands started late and ran longer than expected, so I had a few nuts and dried cherries at noon before entering the grocery store. Still wound up spending $80. sigh. Ate a few more nuts and cherries at 1 PM on the drive home. Feel fine about the extra snacking, as lunch was so super late.
Lunch: chard salad with rotisserie chicken, carrots, red onions, ranch dressing
Snack: don't remember? It's now the next day as I write this, so it's all a blur. I know that I succeeded in not getting into the crackers, chips, or cereal all day. Whoop!
Dinner: 3 eggrolls, half piece pizza, half a pancake. I was very satisfied with this amount of food. Everything was homemade from scratch except the actual wrappers for the eggrolls and no sugar. I ate slowly until I was satisfied.
Snack: half glass champagne to celebrate a friend's accomplishment! Do I have to count this to my evening snack tally? I guess it counts as a girlie drink. sigh.
Many thanks to Julie R. for your sweet reminder to take care of myself and *change the rules* as necessary, especially since I'm nursing. I will definitely do so as seems healthy. The hard thing is that I have gotten in the habit of thinking I'm hungry all the time. I think it started with my first pregnancy, which I definitely used as an excuse to "live it up" and eat all the time. So now I'm not ever sure, especially in the evenings, whether I'm actually hungry or if I'm just wanting to be hungry as an excuse to snack. I have read that the brains (or stomachs?) of chronic over-eaters get to a point where they don't recognize real hungry as distinguished from psychological craving. I want to be strict for at least a few more days to kind of reset my brain to know when hunger is real.
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